Mental Clarity Rapture


I am grappling with my visions

wrestling with the perceived

metaphorical images that parade before my eyes

causing me to see

dimly

the light that’s supposed to be my guide through this

maze of confusion

Things look

wrong

moving in slow motion

gliding back and forth

tantalizingly deceptive

pulling at my consciousness

otherworldly, intangible

causing me visible grief

that tears at my soul making me surrender to my knees

I can’t stop holding my head

it’s spinning

out of control I fear that

if it leaves me the string of sanity will slip through my fingers

and I will float off into the abyss

Wandering through the cosmos aimlessly

my own voice is unfamiliar

the tongue spoken strange

all language is foreign

nothing makes sense

The state of life

clings precipitously between broken pieces that hang

suspended

on the vibration of the streaming breath

that holds me independently of myself

The rainbows are raining because the sky is void of much

needed comfort

The promises they bring have been broken

but still I grab their reins and push off rising to meet the sun

in

the midst of psychological storms

I see the visions dim and grey only shadows behind the veil

I strain but I am not stretched beyond my desire to

understand

I must know what it all means

not knowing I’m all alone feigning ignorance to save face

so my secret is safe with me

Fearing accusations of stupidity

lacking in intelligence

a light lit dimly from the outside in

Now I float with the clouds letting them penetrate me

and in ecstasy I cry out and let go

I am powerful and knowledgeable and

otherworldly

Now I smell of honey and nectar as I arrive in time

to that place where understanding is inherent

and I can see the birth of stars in my eyes

Now my words flow freely and I’m connected to

the gods

They come and they come and they come

and they fortify me and give life to my ranting

and

I move from disarray to order

from chaos to peace

Now I know that I know that I know

life keeps flowing

in my mind the clarity is blinding and I want to shout

it from the mountain that

it all makes sense

my redemption is sweet and the world around me

is heavenly and my doubts have been squelched by

the discoveries I’ve obtained from the depths of

my authentic self

these truths were always there

but my journey was necessary to help me

grasp the magnitude of my potential

and the worth of my existence

to show me that I can love myself

spread my wings and show all my

magnificent colors

lift my voice and proclaim

“I’m here”

I can stand stoically

Shoulders back

Chest held high

Breathing in the magnificence of my rebirth

There are no more obstacles

and all hesitation is in the past

the dark night of my soul is over and the brilliance of my

destiny shines like the sun

the fire is back in my veins

and I know that I know that I know

won’t be looking back

 

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